My Testimony

I grew up in a Christian home and from a young age, my parents always shared with me all the different bible stories in the bible. I started to go to church as a baby and as soon as I was old enough, I joined the staff team for the kid’s programs and later on for the teenager’s group. I loved participating in all the different Christian youth camps and later on, I was even helping organize them. I was blessed growing up in a Christian family and at a very young age, I started to have a relationship with God.

Nevertheless, I struggled a lot with who I am and my true identity. I had friends around me but I always wished for close friends as I often felt pushed around. My character is someone who gets along with many people groups super quickly but it was hard for me to identify my close and true friends outside of the church.

Looking back I would say, I was probably carrying out the faith of my family background instead of truly leaving out my own faith and personal relationship with God.

My school years were not the easiest and I did not really enjoy going to school. I struggled to find friends I truly could rely on and trust. At the age of 15, people at my school started to bully me for no reason. That was not easy to handle and during this time I felt lonely and I struggled even more going to school. But once more I felt so blessed to have my family who was always there for me.

At the age of 16, I started my apprenticeship as a businesswoman. During my 3 years of apprenticeship, God blessed me with a very close friend. We got along well and had a lot of good conversations and I truly felt God was hearing my prayer request and desire of having a close friend. But one day I got a phone call that my friend is in the hospital as he was involved in a car accident and a few days later he passed away.

This circumstance was a huge shock for me and I started to blame God for what happened. I was angry with God and that’s when I decided to escape from my situation. After this accident with my friend, I was even more confused about who I am and what my purpose in my life should be. So, I ended up traveling Abroad for learning English and having some fun.

During the time up-broad, I pondered a lot about the question of who I am and what I want to achieve in my life. I was not able to communicate what I would love to do with my life or even express my passion and talents. Because of the loss of my friend, I started to ignore my relationship with God more and more.

But the longer I was ignoring my faith and relationship with God, the more I felt lonely and lost… … I was longing for a personal relationship with God

After coming back home, I started to work again. But the longer I was working in several areas, the more I felt the desire for a deeper fulfillment in my life. But I was not able to express this deeper desire I was longing for. So I kept working and tried to figure out what I should do next. After a long process, I decided to apply to a university as I thought studying would open new doors for me…but then my whole plan changed…

In July 2021 God sent me to YWAM Lausanne, Switzerland for my Discipleship and Training School. During this 5 month’s program, I started to build up again my personal relationship with God and I started to live out an intimacy with him, which I never had before. I discovered God’s nature and character in such a deeper way and I recommitted my life to God. Healing and forgiveness took place and I was finally able to find my true identity in God. This school truly changed my life perspective and the only desire I had was to follow the path God has for me.

"And I will be your Father, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the LORD Almighty." 2 Corinthians 6:18

But still, it was not easy for me to figure out what I should do after completing school. I struggled with the question of whether I should go and study at the university or if I should apply for a secondary school with Youth with a Mission. As I was praying and seeking the Lord I felt to take the step of faith for going back to Youth with a Mission for a secondary school. So in January 2022, I applied for the Ministry and Leadership Development School.

“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” Martin Luther King, Jr

During this school, I learned a lot about servant leadership and was able to figure out more about who I am, how God created me, and the vision and dreams I have in my heart for my life. I started to develop a deep desire to walk alongside young people and invest in their youth. I started to dream bigger with God and to rely more and more on his plan for my life than rather trying to figure out my own way and timing for my life.

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1, 17

In April 2022 I had an amazing opportunity to staff a Discipleship and Training School where I was able to put a lot of things I learned during my time with YWAM into practice. It was a wonderful journey where I was able to learn and grow in many areas.

In just one year of being now part of YWAM Lausanne, I was able to testify to the goodness and faithfulness of God and of how he is more and more shaping me to become the person he created me to be. I am still on this journey of discovering what else God has for me and figuring out about the gifts and talents God has blessed me with.

But something I know for sure is that I will never regret the decisions I started to make for trusting God’s will and a way for my life. Saying yes to his way, his timing, and his will in my life is the best decision I’ve ever made.

Today, I feel so much fulfillment, peace, and joy in my life and even though not all circumstances are always easy, perfect, and shiny, I am able to enjoy all the little moments of my life. I started to figure out the truth that God is with me and he has his hands over my life… and now I am learning more and more to walk in my true Identity in Christ...

I am so excited for all the upcoming journeys and to figure out more of what God has in store for me. I am sure there is so much more and I was only able to experience a little bit of what is to come…

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